Thursday, November 3, 2011

I am not that awesome.

I'm having a bit of a problem, one that I'm willing to bet many of you have run into in your lifetime. It's starting to create some major conflict in my brain. I'm applying for quite a few things and I really need to overcome this issue I've got with myself; I just need to do it! I can't put this off any longer. I've been staring at Microsoft Word for the last hour and have nothing to show for it. It's not that I can't think of things to write; I just can't think of impressive things to write. Everything I type looks stuffy and stupid and stale. If I say anything that actually portrays what I want, it'll look conceited -- I have to look excellent while appearing humble. This is the hardest thing in the world right now. I need this to be good. I want this job so bad! I need to make it look like they have no choice but to hire me. But alas, what the heck am I supposed to say?? "I'm actually really awesome. I get along with everyone great. I love meeting new people and I can become friends with just about anyone. Also, I'm an amazing writer and basically have flawless grammar. Some of my friends pay me to edit their papers. Booyah. So hire me."?!
I love writing. Why is this so difficult?


P.S. For those who want to know what I'm rambling about, I'm applying for Writing Fellows.
I'm also going to apply for the London Study Abroad program.
And then to be an EFY counselor.
Wish me luck.

P.P.S. Yeah... the 5 minutes that I had to wait for Natalie's baked potato to cook in the microwave before resuming watching Sleepless in Seattle was such a long five minutes. Gah.


  1. hahahahaha! that graph is the truest thing I've ever seen!

  2. Good luck!!! I feel ya about the awkwardness of writing about yourself. I'm applying to a grad program that requires a 10-20 page paper about myself...I feel bad for the person reading those papers!