Thursday, September 20, 2012

A silly blog post about hair

I know I'm going to hate myself for this. I know it. I know it.

But GOSHDANGIT don't I just look so cute with bangs and short(ish) brown hair!
October 2011
It's long right now. I wish it were shorter. I finally grew out my bangs, what I've been trying to do for years -- but JK I want bangs again. I always want my hair to be what it is not. But I think that is true of me in all aspects of life. I want what I can't have.

What puzzles and bothers me even more than my brain's impeccable knack for desiring what I don't have, though, is my disturbing lack of effort to actually get what I want. Maybe it's because I know that once I get it, I'll want the opposite. Or maybe I'm just scared of trying because I wouldn't know what to do when I actually achieved something that I've always dreamed about. Maybe I'm afraid that no matter how hard I try, it won't work.

Whatever it is, I'm sick of it.


  1. This is Mostly because I've been talking about getting my hair cut--seriously cut-- for the last three months, and still haven't done it. So I'm perpetually living torn between desire and self-loathing for not having the guts to do it. Hahaha, so glad we're in this boat together.